When Old Patterns of Behavior No Longer Serve You

Photo by Andrea Piacquadio on Pexels.com In therapy we are working through current thought processes and where they came from. What we are finding is that a lot of our current thought processes were once very necessary and important for survival. Not necessarily physical survival, but emotional survival. They kept us on our toes and…

Sunset

My heartbeat picks up as the sun goes to bed. I can faintly hear the darkness calling for us. If I sit still enough I can feel it's cool comforting touch. My heartbeat picks up because I know the battle begins again. The battle we promised to fight. The battle that can't be lost without…

Community: Reasons we need each other

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com Humans are not designed to be solitary creatures. We were created to be in community with others, not just our families. We do better together. Why is this so? I know from personal experience we do better around others. We feel safer, more supported, and less alone. Our friends are…

Be Still

This morning as I was reading my daily Bible devotions on YouVersion I came across a thought. Maybe even a cluster of thoughts. In one of the devotionals they cited Exodus 14:14 "The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still." For as long as I can remember I always thought that…

Wandering in Darkness

Tonight at our Celebrate Recovery meeting the speaker read a devotional in which the author was discussing being stuck in the dark void. The dark void, a place we've been wandering in for months now. In the piece the author mentioned people coming into the void to be with him/her. In that moment I thought…

Anxiety: The Energy That Destroys

Yesterday we had a psych eval with a new doctor. The outcome was predictable (C-PTSD, DID, GAD, and major depression), and yet surprising. Anxiety is destroying our ability to use our coping skills and is harming our physical health. The doctor said until our anxiety comes down significantly and until things are resolved at home…

For I know the plans I have for you

"For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future". Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV) Sunday morning I was still reeling from a very bad day on Thursday. I logged into our church service and tried my best…

When Prayer Doesn’t Feel Like Enough

"Experience teaches us that we do not always receive the blessings we ask for in prayer." Mary Baker Eddy We are struggling. Struggling in a way we haven't in many years. There's feelings of shame, guilt, regret, betrayal, hurt, and just overall massive amounts of pain and darkness. There are only 4 reasons to keep…

An Adventure Awaits

This picture was taken by us in November 2019. Brilliant Chaos and Teen1 are going to be embarking on an adventure tomorrow. We are returning to that absolutely beautiful place the above picture came from, where we will stay for about 10 weeks. Howard the Dog is coming with us, as he loves it there…

Dissociative Identity Disorder and the Church

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com Today I decided to google "multiple personalities and the church" as well as "dissociative identity disorder and the church". What I read there, while mostly articles 10+ years old, was truly disturbing. Most of the articles, spanning many different denominations, were of the opinion that D.I.D is actually demon possession…